Hey there! My name is Nicole Kim! I’m a 5th year health sciences student, anime & videogame lover, musician, and fashion enthusiast! I’ve got a princely shih-tzu dog and a gentlemanly American shorthair cat. I probably have way too much MUJI stationery for my own good (just kidding – that’s not possible). I am in the child health specialization, and am involved in clubs facilitating art activities for kids! In the future, I hope to become a pediatric occupational therapist!
Imperfectionism is a way of living that embraces one’s own imperfections. This is the best foundational mentality for personal growth and mental wellness. What is this lifestyle? It means that you accept your fear of failure and yet you push through that discomfort to go after your goals. You embrace all types of emotions openly and practice working through them, instead of despite them. You self-validate instead of self-berating. You love freely, because love is an abundant force that frees both the giver and receiver.
BIG disclaimer: I am no imperfectionism guru. It is something that I myself am working toward. In fact, you might say that I am currently embodying the opposite of imperfectionism. I have been a perfectionist ever since I was a small child. This perfectionism grew and was a major catalyst in what I now call my big crash and burn.
In January 2017, I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety disorder (more specifically in reference to social performance anxiety). After a severe depressive episode, I decided to cancel my second term of 3rd year undergrad to work on my mental health. I maintained a journal for some time following my discharge. There, I wrote about all my raw thoughts, musings, and experiences throughout my days.
Soon enough, I realized that writing is something that I loved to do from when I was younger and not yet caught up in this rush rush perfectionistic society. Somewhere along the line, I lost this part of myself (as I did many other hobbies in the name of a 4.0 GPA)…well, no longer!! Here I am, and here you are!
Be kind to yourself!
As you’ll find out very quickly on my site, I want you to always remember to be kind to yourself (BKTY). This is my ultimate gesture to promote imperfectionism. You know all your own darkest secrets and parts of yourself you are ashamed of or want to hide. By being kind to yourself, you show yourself love because of these imperfections, instead of despite them.
This blog definitely helps me with my mental health, but I also want my words to help you. Whether or not you are also struggling with mental illness, if the idea of imperfectionism is appealing to you, I hope that my experiences and thoughts can help guide you. And remember – I am learning with you! So feel free to reach out if you want to talk about this difficult but rewarding journey called life 🙂
Always remember to BKTY (be kind to yourself),
P.S. If you were wondering about my blog name & logo, I’ll provide some deets below.
“Nico” is my nickname amongst my friends. “Mochi” comes from one of the first steps that I took after high school to regain my fizzled/thrown away love for the arts. Back in the summer after grade 12, I watched this Youtube video on how to make a mochi plushie and began making plushies for my loved ones. I remember how delighted I felt from seeing their happy faces. It was freeing, because I began to see that the beauty and art that I create does not have to be perfect to be a) fun and b) appreciated. Art is something that I let go of long ago and I am slowly building up the skill and habit again (by slowly I’m talking really slowly). It is a great avenue to practice imperfectionism, because art can never be perfect, and being kind to yourself during the process is often a difficult practice.
Geometric heart logo
So, I am a big fan of pixel art. I love to create my own designs and use perler beads to bring them to life. I also swoon over all the amazing pixel art on We Heart It, Pinterest, and Tumblr on a regular basis. So this is why I created my logo as a pixel art design – purely to pay homage to this little obsession of mine. I used a heart to represent love, whether it be self-love or love for others (both are important). I liked the idea of a geometric design because I could illustrate that our lives may not be perfectly intact and smooth, but they are beautiful nonetheless. The colours are asymmetrical to further drive home the idea of embracing our imperfections.